Terima dgn hati terbuka

Kenapa kita nak mintak sesuatu yg lebih drpd apa yg kita layak? Kenapa kita nak salahkan diri apabila musibah menimpa? Sedangkan musibah tu adakakanya menunjukkan betapa istimewanya kita di mata tuhan hingga Dia menguji kita walaupun kita rasa kita tak mampu laluinya.. Kan? And yes, ada kalanya kita dpt sesuatu tapi kita akan kehilangan sesuatu yg lain..

But, siapa kita utk meminta semuanya menjadi milik kita.. Kan? Mungkin kita ada itu, kita hilang ini, dan mungkin ada masanya, yg itu pun kita hilang, well, itu hanyalah ujian utk kita kuatkan hati kerana pasti ad sesuatu utk kita.. Kalau semua org ikut jalan itu dan berjaya, tak semestinya kita yg ada lencongan dlm jalan kita dan cedera ini takkan berjaya.. Mungkin kita lambat, mungkin kita tak tuju ke tempat yg sama seperti org lain, tapi, definisi kejayaan itu subjektif.. Ada org anggap dpt rumah besar itu kejayaan. Ada org anggap ada rumah kecik tapi sentiasa bersama itu kejayaan.. Ada org anggap, dpt hantar duit pada family itu kejayaan.. So, siapa kita nak pertikaikan pandangan setiap org tentang kejayaan? Kenapa nak compare kononnya org itu tak cukup berjaya? Come on, open up our heart, ucaplah tahniah pada org yg berjaya itu tanpa niat memperkecilkannya.. Siapa kita utk pertikaikannya? Kalau awk rasa awk bagus, lihat sekeliling sekali lagi, ada lg ramai yg bagus... :)

Dan pada yg berjaya tu, sentiasa tunduk kepala kau.. Kerana tak semestinya bila awk berjaya sekarang, awk ada hak hina org.. Kerana tak semestinya awk akan berjaya lg pada masa depan.. Rezeki tuhan nak bg, kita terima.. Tapi jgn salah guna kerana bila2 masa je tuhan boleh tarik balik.. Dan utk org yg mmg dah buat sebaik mungkin utk rendah diri, jaga hati org, tapi, tuhan tetap tarik balik rezeki itu, jgnlah pula kamu rasa seperti tuhan tak hargai kamu.. Kerana kamu diuji kerana tuhan syg kamu dan ingin memberi ganjaran lebih utk kamu bila kamu berjaya lalui ujian itu.. So, terima dgn hati yg terbuka.. :)

:)

Satu hari nanti

Satu hari nanti mungkin akan ada ygfaham apa yg saya rasakan dan fikirkan.. Saya taknak perhatian itu, saya independent enough to take care of myself.. But, ada masa2 saya mahu org bgtau saya apa patut saya lakukan.. U got what i mean? But yes, hati saya sekeras2 nya but satu hari nanti pasti akan berlembut.. :) saya dah penat nak ckp pasal hati dan perasaan.. It doesnt matter anymore for me.. Lebih lama fikir, lg susah nak lupa.. So, saya lebih suka fikir hal family dan hal kawan2.. Penat nak bermain dgn hati dan perasaan kerana hal ni takkan berakhir..

Hmmm.. But, if saya boleh padam certain things, saya pasti akan lakukan.. Saya akan memilih utk tak pernah suka dia.. Supaya sekarang saya tak rasa kacau melihat dia dan mereka..

Hmmmm.. Bila la hati ni nak benar2 bekerjasama.. Tapi takpela...

konvo!

=)
Alhamdulillah....
tadi dah konvo secara rasmi... i'm grateful...
=)

the journey was long actually....
2 years in diploma...
ok, yg ni dah konvo masa 2008.. haha...
then 2 1/2 years for my degree....
=)

i feel old...
haha...

alhamdulillah...
i cant stop saying this...
u know... and one more thing....
apart of my family,
i can't thank enough my friends...
my batch mates and classmates in particular...
and specially my clique...
yes....

i dont think i can make it if i dont have them...
hmmm...

well... i'm a bit tired now...
i will just upload a few pictures...
=)

kami sgt happy! haha

=) love them!

me me! haha...

more to come... need a rest first.... cuaca sgt panas... kepala sakit.. huhu...

13 may

Hai there.. Lama rasanya menghilang.. Why? Sbb sibuk reply birthday wishes..

Yes.. my birthday la of coz! Haha.. 13th May is my birthday.. I celebrated it one day earlier with my family. :)

Alhamdulillah.. now i'm one year older.. Heeee...

What i want to say is, kdg2, i might look like i have everything i want.. But, actully there is this one thing that i cant get n i'm kinda sad about it.. Hmmm.. But bila fkir balik, saya sgt bersyukur... :)

Dah tua tapi entry masih begini.. haha

P/s: yes, birthday saya ni ada dlm buku sejarah as rusuhan kaum.. But im not anything like that.. I went to chinese school, have indian as my best friend n went to uitm where all of them are bumiputra.. :)

kan?

bila tegas, org ckp tak bertimbang rasa...
bila terima je semua, hati sendiri yg akan sakit...
bila mengadu sakit hati, org ckp tak abis2 nak mengadu...
bila diamkan diri, org makin menjadi2 n pijak kepala...
bila kene pijak kepala, ada org suh jadi selfish sket.. jgn mudah sgt kene pijak kepala...
bila jadi selfish.. org kutuk belakang..

so.. what the hell i should do?

last2 kene simpan sendiri gak....
telan je la apa yg diterima...
kan?

jgn!

saya taknak buat dah...
saya dah penat tau tak?
tlg la...
kamu sedut setiap kekuatan saya...
kamu cucuk duri dlm hati saya...

saya nak mintak satu..
tlg pergi jauh2....
taknak ada connection....

jauh2....
pergi...
or, let me go....
and jgn dtg cari lg!

-___-

haish... mcm mana nak ckp eh...
hmmm...
lupakan je la...
kalau tulis kang, bley buat gaduh ni...

-________-

hee...

saya benar2 suka perasaan bila saya boleh sumbat telinga dgn earphone hit the shuffle button... oh yeah! haha...

tak lama lg, umur dah nak meningkat lg.. but, apa bezanya? apa bezanya umur itu jika kita tak buat perubahan.. kan? so... yes... umur saya akan meningkat... as compared to last year... saya mmg byk berubah.... tahun lepas... waktu mcm ni... saya tgh praktikal... ada masa balik a bit late....

but i do remember this one time.. masa tu abg saya ada... dia dtg satu family.. and diorang nak balik dah esok tu.. but saya kan kerja.. so mcm takde masa nak luangkan masa.. then.. saya balik tu,dgn baju kerja, abg saya terus bwk one whole family pi ikea... sbb nak beli brg... come one.. sampai ikea pun pukul 930pm.. what do u expect.... haha... masa tu sebenarnya sgt letih n lapar.. sbb kebetulan that day sgt sibuk buat kerja n saya makan lunch pukul 5pm dgn memakan roti sahaja... then sambung kerja n pukul 8pm baru kuar office tu pun sbb senior halau balik... yey... dlm hati sgt happy sbb balik awal n berangan la nak makan kat rumah.. rupanya terus pergi ikea.. ok... -______-

so saya pun berjalan2 dgn gembiranya kat ikea dgn baju kerja saya itu... n melayan my nephew yg sgt comel.. haha.. ikea pun dah nak tutup masa tu... then i told my family saya nak tunggu kat kerusi2 bawah sbb nak beli hotdog utk isi perut... tapi semua dah habis n tinggal ice cream vanila rm1 tu.. haha... yes, i had no choice... dah lapar sgt masa tu... so beli ice cream n menikmatinya hingga lupa nak share dgn my nephew.. haha... selepas separuh dlm perut baru share dgn dia... hehe.. sampai rumah tu... terus tido.. sbb dah tak larat n terlepas la makan malam saya... hahaha...

so... what i want to say is... saya setahun yg lepas tak seperti saya sekarang..

no.. saya masih suka vanilla.. lol..

no no...
as in... my position now...
setahun lepas.. saya pelajar uitm...
sekarang? saya ex pelajar uitm...
setahun lepas, kawan2 saya semua disisi...
sekarang? kami mengejar cita2 masing2...

setahun lepas mengajar saya mcm2...
so... utk hari saya nak meningkat umur ni....
=)
saya cuma nak senyum...
tak lama lg... beberapa hari saja lagi... senyum....

heeeee.....

Should i?

Saya bermula dgn menulis ni bila saya terasa jiwa saya kacau.. Masih igt dulu saya selalu akhirinya dgn mengatakan inilah saya, saya yg mengikut arah angin..

Dan saya menulis bukan utk org baca tapi sekadar utk jadikan tempat saya luahkan apa yg saya rasa.. :)

Saya tak kisah jika tiada yg membaca.. Sbb, come on... Punya la byk blog, nape org nak pilih blog emo saya.. Haha.. But, i dont care.. :)

Btw, ada benda yg mengganggu fikiran saya.. Should i let it out ? Hmmm

Try- happy

Apa yg saya suka? Well, saya suka bila i can do something utk happykan org.. Walau saya tau saya takde bakat tapi saya tetap suka mencuba.. Malah pernah terfikir nak jadi wedding planner or event organizer.. Haha.. Surprise? Haha.. Entahlah.. Saya suka memikirkan yg i'm planing something yg mengembirakan.. Haha.. Ok, why am i telling this? Sbb, everytime saya rasa sedih, i will try to make someone else happy.. Ni cara ni je yg buat saya kurang memikirkan benda tu.. :) weird huh? I want to be happy.. So, plz layan je if saya tiba2 bg kamu hand made card.. Haha! Peace!

stop playing around

don't say u miss me when u don't mean it...
don't say u miss me when u have someone else...
and don't tell me to ignore her feelings and say that she deserve it because she's the reason we separated...

firstly, we separated because we dont get along together anymore... the sparkle was just not there anymore... gone...

secondly, i know how it felt like to get cheated... it hurts... and i dont want she to face it... she loves u so much... just take care of her... stop playing around... stop letting her down...

=)

maafkan saya

i'm so sorry God...
oh my... betapa berdosanya saya....
kalah dgn ujian yg diberi...

betapa berdosanya saya....
bila saya juga menjadi seperti org yg saya tidak sukai iaitu inginkan agar ada org bertolak ansur dgn saya....

betapa lemahnya saya....
kerana, jika ujian itu diberi Tuhan kepada saya, ertinya, saya perlu kuatkan hati dan bertolak ansur... remember nur... dont ask for anything that people can't give u.... dont.... semua org ada limitation sendiri... sure, they have their reasons to hurt u...

betapa berdosanya saya kerana ingin bersedih dan rasakan seperti susah nak luahkan apa yg saya rasa... sedangkan, Tuhan itu sentiasa ada... Dia paling memahami kita walaupun pada ketika kita tidak memahami diri kita sendiri...

Ya Allah... saya berdosa kerana hampir putus asa walaupun ada ketika Kau berikan rezeki pada saya.. ketika Kau berikan org2 utk sentiasa menyokong saya...

Maafkan saya...

there is no point of saying Alhamdulillah bila saya gagal dgn ujian kecil ni... Maafkan kesilapan ini... ya, saya benar2 perlu bersyukur dgn segalanya n menerimanya dgn hati yg terbuka... Alhamdulillah... Tuhan yg Maha Pengasih masih percayakan saya dan memberi ujian itu... Alhamdulillah.... saya bersyukur...

*taknak sedih2.. taknak....*

one night only

i miss being me... yes...
u read it correctly...
i miss being me...
all i wanted to do tonight is...
tutup lampu...
sumbat telinga dgn earphone...
put the volume to the max...
and hit the play button...
and just listening to the music...
laugh.. cry... scream....

that is all i wanted to do...
just being me...

Invisible

I want to be invisible because my existance dont make a difference..

Jiwa kacau

Yes, looking at my post, saya mmg tgh jiwa kacau.. Tak suka perasaan mcm ni.. Hmmmm... The only way to get better is by writing it here.. I have a lot in my mind.. Hmmm.. Maybe that is why berlakunya jiwa kacau.. Hmmm... Kdg2, berfikir byk sgt membawa mudarat pada diri sbb kita mungkin akan mempertikaikan apa yg kita dpt n menjadi tak bersyukur.. :) kan? Hmmm.. So, bila jiwa saya kacau n getting there, i will look at myself.. Kita takley terlalu berharap n patut bersyukur dgn apa yg ada... :) kan? Ok, i will be ok.. InsyaAllah..

Am i right?

Setiap org tak lari drpd masalah.. Ya, mungkin org tu nampak ok dan kamu nampak teruk, but how sure r u org tu takde masalah? How sure? And yes, ada masanya i might look like i get everything i want, but how sure r u that r EVERYTHING that i want? Cuma, i'm thankful with what i have.. As all of us know, not everything that we want is the one we need..

Hmm

Kdg2 dlm hidup kita ni, kita akan bertindak n tanpa kita sedar, kita dah melampaui batasan yg ada.. Adakalanya, bila kita lihat org buat kesilapan, kita tegur dan nasihatkan semula org tu berhati hati dan tak cross the line.. But here kita sendiri yg pi bertindak mcm tu.. But thank God i realized it quickly and stop it.. Remember, dont expect too much from people because they might value us differently and not like how we valued them.. U got what i mean? Hmmm..

Mari senyum

Akhirnya i can play games without having to calculate how much more pages that i need to study.. =) btw, rasa nak senyum je.. Ada siapa2 nak senyum dgn saya? Heee

love u umi

ok.. tadi dah penat tension, nak tulis benda best... =)

umi...
=)

i'm grateful to be your daughter umi... masa nur degil2, umi tetap sabar... mcm masa if umi suruh nur masukkan makanan dlm peti sejuk, nur lupa... umi sentiasa double check n simpan sendiri... masa nur tgh sedih... taknak keluar bilik.. taknak makan... umi tetap memahami... umi tak paksa nur utk cerita coz u know nur tak ready n plus nur susah nak tunjuk my emotion...

i'm grateful to have u umi.... umi selalu masak makanan kesukaan kami semua... umi slalu pening setiap hari utk fikir nak masak apa... when i say want something, umi akan diam je... then, umi akan bg... =)

i'm grateful sbb umi sentiasa percaya kat nur... terutamanya hal study... nur slalu rasa nur tak pandai... nur slalu rasa abg am n abg wan sgt pandai... but umi slalu kata, nur sama pandai mcm mereka... nur pandai dlm bidang nur.. dan mereka pandai dlm bidang mereka... u're so sweet umi.... =)

nur slalu buat perangai masa kecik2... i know.... nur akan buat perangai n merajuk bila nur tak dpt sesuatu... but umi ajar nur utk berubah... sbb ada masanya umi akan layan... ada masanya, umi biarkan nur utk fikir sendiri... yes umi... nur belajar.... sbbkan tu juga, nur tau.. bukan semua benda yg kita nak,kita perlu dpt...

nur sgt beruntung ada umi... umi igt tak? there was this one time.. masa nur kecik2.. umi suruh nur solat... but, nur sibuk sikat rambut... sbb masa tu i have a long n wavy hair... then masa tu, somehow.. sikat tu tersekat kat rambut nur... omg... menangis.... then abg am menambahkan ketakutan nur sbb dia ckp nanti rambut nur kene potong jadi botak... nur dah meraung2 takut n ckp taknak pergi tadika... haha... abg am tak habis2 ckp nur akan jadi botak.... nur percaya sbb masa tu abg am dah potong botak rambut2 barbie doll nur... but there u go.. umi tetap tenang n cuba leraikan sikat from rambut nur walaupun nur n abg am tgh menjerit2 sampai nak hilang suara.. hahaha... so funny....

what i want to say is.. umi.. u know... nur kagum dgn umi punya ketenangan... i dont know whether i can be like u... tenang je.... plus, umi sentiasa ada untuk kami.... when no one else r there...

umi juga sentiasa percayakan nur.. nur boleh buat apa saje yg nur nak dan pergi mana saje yg nur mahu... but don't worry umi... nur takkan sia2kan kepercayaan umi... i will tell u everything.. termasuk zaman nur couple dulu... nur bgtau umi yg nur nak pergi dating.. =)

i love u umi... nur janji akan sentiasa cuba utk jadi anak yg baik... but, if ada salah n silap nur... i'm sorry....
=)

LOVE U UMI.

=)

oh yeh

haha... my previous post sgt dramatik...

maafkan saya ya...

panas la... kepala serius rasa panas... n plus mata rasa pedih akibat kepanasan itu...

haha...

abaikan saje k...

heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee......

haha... insanity

saya baru habis my mock exam...

perasaan? i lost my insanity...

why?

i started my day without breakfast...

i took my lunch at 12pm dgn makan roti...

i wanted to buy my fav green tea.. tapi takde... so, soya it is...

ok.. now the exam part...

saya dah dpt predict perasaan saya lepas ni sbb before ni masa test, stress juga...

and, my lecturer have this attitude of sgt sgt sgt kedekut markah...

dimana kalau saya jawab mcm tu masa degree, sure akan lulus...

tapi, kalau bg dia tanda, markah akan jadi bwh paras lulus...

-____-

masa test lepas, utk paper ni.. dia cuma luluskan dua org..

no no.. kelas saya bukan 5 org in total ya..

kelas saya 30+ org in total...

-_____-

haha... but lecturer ni mmg bagus pun... cuma sgt tegas sbb dia ni pernah jadi examiner utk this paper based in uk...

ok... kembali pada exam tadi...

jeng jeng jeng...

malas la nak citer...

yg pasti.. ada satu ketika, saya begitu mengagumi soalan itu sampai rasa nak tertembus saya lihat kertas soalan...

-______-'

hmmm...

keluar exam hall yg sejuk mcm peti ais tu rasa kepala panas mcm arang bbq..

-_____-"

plus... cuaca sgt sgt sgt panas... pukul 4pm kan... mmg la panas...

huhu...

plus... driving ketika panas sgt tak best.... kepala dah la panas.. then ada plak pemandu yg bodoh tak reti bg signal tiba2 masuk... and, ada kereta bodoh yg asyik himpit nak masuk.. then bila dah bg masuk, masuk mcm kura2 patah satu kaki sbb sibuk gelak2 pegang hp... -______-'

tak cukup dgn itu.. dgn pemandu yg bodo asyik cucuk kereta saya sedangkan kiri kanan saya kosong n if dia tak sabar nak berak, boleh je masuk lane sebelah.... -____-

bertambah menyampah bila pemandunya memakai cermin mata hitam n tersenyum sumbing hingga membuatkan saya nak muntah lalu saya tukar ke lane laju... tapi lelaki itu sgt bodoh n tetap ikut... sampai di tol pula.. dia di belakang saya sibuk2 nak guna smart tag juga n plus smart tag tetiba byk kereta dan saya kene tgk muka pemandu kereta belakang yg telah buka cermin mata hitam n tgh kenyit mata... rasa nak muntah lg... so lepas tol terus bwk kereta n tinggalkan asap kat lelaki bodoh itu...

saya rasa sgt panas hati panas kepala n panas panas panas... so masuk bilik, sempat bukak tudung je... dgn baju masih ada, saya terus masuk bilik air duduk bwh shower n mula rasa nak nangis... damn! but taknak nangis... selepas 20 minit tiba2 rasa sejuk... tak pasal2 kene jemur baju n jeans sbb semua dah basah kuyup...

-_____-

so ya.. i lost my insanity...

plus.. esok exam saya 9am.. haha..

ok... cut the crap out!

saya ok je sebenarnya.. cuma saya tak boleh kene panas.. sbb akan sakit kepala... so, tu yg jadi rasa mcm nak marah...

now i'm ok plus tgh gelak sbb baca bebelan saya di atas ini.. haha...

=)

senyum je la.... nak turun cari green tea sejuk! oh yeh!

dont bother

there's a thin line between right and wrong..

sometimes, there are things that are not that clear anymore.. the things that i used to understand as right now dont make any sense anymore... so yes, i'm questioning myself..

do i really understand it... and why do i feel that way... is it just me? or, yes, the surrounding is changing too...

but then... i think i know the answer... the answer to all of my quesions is... don't question things... we dont need explanation to every things that happen.. by giving a reason to everything that happen will be very tiring... and we will reach a point where, everything dont make any sense...

hmmm....

dont try so hard when u know, trying wont change anything..

one thing for sure...

don't cross the line....

umi saya!

weee..

tgh study.... esok exam...

then tiba2 rasa hilang mood...

so saje tgk2 bilik....

so.... ada 2 keping kertas yg tidak digunakan...

ahaaa!

nak buat kad mother's day.. haha...

abaikan jika nampak pelik...

saya membuatnya dlm masa 30 minit berbekalkan 2 keping kertas.. haha...

yg penting... dibuat dgn kasih syg!

=)

saya sayang umi saya!

before tulis

after tulis...


haha... with love...

ok... setakat ini saja.... =)

esok nak exam.. sabtu dan ahad.... cuti blog 2 hari k...

thanks!

=)

don't

don't make it too easy...

don't....

look back who u r nur...

take a good look...

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yes... can u see it now?

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don't waste your time...

lapar

now saya rasa saya mcm zombi... haha...

ni la akibatnya study last minute...

*big clap utk diri sendiri*

i dont remember bila saya decide nak tido malam tadi...

i was so eager utk study...

sbb asyik tangguhkan niat itu.. huhu...

but the next thing i know,

i wake up in the morning hugging my pillow...

-_________-

mcm mana boleh baring sedangkan the last thing i remember, i was sitting n studying...

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tak ada jawapan...

makan sarapan sat...

lapar...

haha

deleted it

i deleted my previous post...

sbb, bila i rasa i dah ok and i saw the post, i will remember every word of it..

=(

taknak fikir..

taknak stress...

okthxbye

i wish i can answer my mock exam this weekend like i write a blog...

=)

saya tak pernah percaya ada ilmu dlm otak saya... haha....

.okthxbye.

goodbye my princess

org ckp... kalau tgh sedih, better jgn dgr lagu sedih.. nanti lg sedih...

org ckp juga... kalau time sedih, paling sesuai dgr lagu sedih...

org ckp... kdg2 lagu ni tunjukkan apa yg kita rasa...

saya ckp???

well, not that i tgh sedih or anything...

*ok, a bit sedih sbb byk lg tak study*

*salah sendiri.. dush3...*

but, i like this song...

akan dgr bila i take a short break between study..

*ok, tipu... actually its a long time utk dgr lagu+blog and hanya short time utk study*

*sinful*

but whatever it is... nak share..

tak dgr pun takpe...

but, what i feel?

lagu ni sgt sweet... takley tgk muka that guy.. so sad...

maksud saya, bukan the first guy in this video..

tapi, the guy lagi satu..

ahhh.... tgk baru faham...

suka tgk this series.. walaupun berulang kali...

=)

ok, cut it short... video tak masuk gak... sibuk bebel...

haha...

enjoy!

p.s: satu lg... lagu ni takley play kuat2... nanti kucing saya dgr.... sbb nama dia princess.... so u get want i mean? i slalu ugut nak hantar dia kat SPCA if dia still buat lubang2 kecik di handbag saya... haha... i won't hantar dia la SPCA la.. syg gile! love u princess...

ok... ok.. video plz...

o.k.a.y.

today is Thursday...

should i freak out now?

i have exam on Saturday and Sunday..

yet, i haven't read half of the books..

its a mock exam..

and my lecturer told us don't make a fool of ourselves..

hmmm...

let me think...

maybe i should freak out now...

*freaking out n running up n down*

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*still running up n down*

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*nampak tv while running*

.......

haaa.... ada cerita best...

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*after 5 minutes*

why am i sitting here?

eh... why did i run just now?

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*confuse*

back to the books...

=(

why the books never seduce me like tv always did?

-________-

nur, jgn salahkan tv or buku...

kamu yg malas...

o.k.a.y.

jgn malas2..

mata sakit...

=(

mata rasa sakit bila nampak cahaya...

hingga membuatkan saya sakit kepala...

=(

i just want to close my eyes...

*ternampak notes tak baca lg*

erk...

5 minutes.... heeee....

now i'm smiling....

=)

jgn malas2....

listen

i want to listen to my heart...

=)

enough said...

i love my family...

i love my friends...

=)

my heart told me to move on...

stop hanging in the same place...

but, my heart told me to take a good care of her...

no one should enter it again...

no one...

single isn't a status.. it's a word that describes a person who is strong enough to live and enjoy life without depending on a partner.

=)

p/s: i like to smile in every of my post.. so what? haha....

=)

miss u saddiq!

stop dgr lagu sedih for awhile...

i want to master the nursery songs.....

haha...

i miss my nephew so much...

=(

last time i saw him,

i nyanyi lagu ba ba black sheep berjuta kali.. haha...

bukan taknak nyanyi lagu lain..

but dia suka i nyanyi lagu tu...

bila start dgn "ba ba" pun dia dah gelak...

maybe gak dia gelak sbb my voice sounds funny.. haha...

oh... i miss u...

=(

lucky

i was bbm-ing with a friend of mine.. (yey, dulu kawan blog je) haha....

and before tu... a friend posted in one of my status in fb saying i'm lucky....

ok... then actually something pop-up in my mind....

about...

LUCKY...

i was telling him something and he told me that i'm lucky....

i dont realized it.... for me, he's lucky....

so something cross my mind....

i cant see myself clearly... i only feel yg how painful it is...

and maybe, tu dah buat i terlepas pandang benda surround me...

hmmm... yes... that's why... we need someone to tell us how lucky we r...

yes, indeed... bila fikir balik... i am lucky....

i have a brother who r there for me... always stand by me when things is not right...

i'm lucky to have friends that will help me... giving advise to me...

i'm lucky to get to know two new blogger friends that i finally reveal my fb.. haha....

i'm lucky to have friends that say they love me out of the blue....

i'm lucky to still standing despite the pain n heart breaking...

i'm lucky to be given the strength and still can live my life...

yes...

i am lucky...

=)

Alhamdulillah...

same goes to u my friend...

u're lucky too....

u have your friends...

your family that support u...

u r lucky to be given the strength too because despite your own pain, u still take your time to advise me n riz... =)

u r lucky to be there studying...

i know u will be ok...

and u r lucky to have us! haha... *perasan*

actually i'm lucky to have u as my friend...

=)

kdg2, kita jatuh.. and, tu membuatkan kita cuma pandang dari satu sudut... but u know... a friend will see us in a good way... mereka will see how lucky we are... i guess this is a wake up call... all of us r lucky after all... Alhamdulillah.... =)

so, hip hip hoorey! all of us sgt sgt lucky!

short

when something is bothering me...

i will keep on posting my short entry..

just a way for me to keep it all together...

i dont want to say it...

i just dont...

but there's something that keep on hunting me...

huhu...

malas nak fikir...

try...

just try....

i can..

i know i can...

i want...

i want to know that i can...

=)

no matter

no matter how we try...

kalau bukan utk kita...

tetap bukan utk kita...

no matter how positive we r...

kalau dah sakit...

tetap akan sakit...

no matter how pain it is...

kalau kita kuat...

tetap akan boleh laluinya...

no matter how long it is...

kalau saya mahu...

tetap saya akan cuba...

no matter what u think...

kalau negative sekalipun...

tetap hanya saya yg tau....

=)

what's wrong?

let's do it together...

buang semua tu...

we dont need to be hanging on the same place...

we should move...

or i should say,

we want to move...

new place...

new experience...

leaving it behind...

i know i dah move on...

cuma kdg2, i keep on looking back...

but,

i dont want...

=)

be happy....

we should...

they r happy....

so, what's wrong with us?

.

.

.

.

packing it all now...

moving on...

=)

never realize

hate it...

=(

i know i dah ok...

then...

arrgghhh...

enough said...

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

finding my vanilla ice blended..

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

still... it hurts...

thinking about it? more hurts...

recall the conversation....

more n more hurts....

i shouldn't be alone with that person...

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

and, that person asked me a favor...

cara dia ckp.. yes... very easy..

.

.

.

.

but, hmm.... it is not as easy as he think...

yet, he never realize it...

.

.

.

end of story

abaikan

=)

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

=)

*sila abaikan entry ini... rasa nak senyum je... *

=)

=)

=)

kata2 kosong

1 May 2011 (9.05am) :

Nur: umi, nak ubat sakit tekak...

Umi: nah.. amik ni..

Nur: sakit la tekak ni.. nur taknak minum air sejuk dah.. menyakitkan tekak je... nanti kalau demam mcm mana nak exam... kan? nur taknak minum air sejuk.. tunggu abis exam 8th may ni baru nur minum..

umi: ok

2 May 2011 ( 11.45am):

*enjoying my vanilla ice blended*

haha...

sinful!

=)

thanks ciko

thanks ciko...

haha...

why?

ciko is my rabbit....

and he live in my room, mainly in the bathroom...

what did he do?

haha...

ok... i was listening to the music... yg serious kuat...

so, saya tak dgr dia buat apa...

u know apa dia buat?

haha...

dia makan all my memories...

lol...

ok... mcm ni...

i have this one small box... saya letak kat bawah katil..

dlm kotak ni...

ada bunga2 kering...

iaitu bunga pemberian org tu....

like ages ago punya cerita la...

then ada byk kertas2...

as in benda2 yg dia pernah tulis la....

saya tak perasan bila si arnab ni tolak keluar box ini...

but bila saya sedar... kotak tu dah terbuka...

kertas2 tu dah berlubang2... tinggal 20% of the actual size...

and bunga2 tu... tinggal tangkai je...

hahahahaha...

u know...

saya tak marah...

hahahaha...

why?

sbb ciko dah do a favor to me...

i asyik hold on the things...

konon syg nak buang..

and now...

its gone...!

thanks to ciko for helping me...

=)

love u...

jap nak promote muka si ciko...

haha...

isn't it true?

ok... want to share my fav quote before i start study...

*or atleast i try to study*

"we need to be hurt in order to grow,

we must fail in order to know,

we must lose in order to gain,

lessons are learned best through pain"

isn't it true?

=)

hb!

hey.. a special post for my blogger friend...

its his birthday!

nak post kat page dia, but, taktau mcm mana... so here it is...

Credit to my brother's picture... haha... i take it and edited it with some words... =)

happy birthday again!

hehe

ok.. sgt tak suka...

when i want to sleep at night, i really have problem... takley tido... boleh baring sejam dua baru boleh tido... but.... the moment i sit and open up my book... mengantuk sampai mata berair2.... so... baring nak tido... then my eyes just can't close... pfffttt....

hahaha...

sindrom org malas blaja...

=)

kan?

saya terbaca ni...

'It's hard to completely stop loving someone after so much time has been invested. It hurts to just give it all up.'

but then...

one thing for sure.... dont waste your time for something that are not there anymore... kan?

time is very precious....

=)

jom!

the best thing to do?

not to think about it... can i do it?

yes...

i can!

sakit kepala... huhu... maybe sbb penat... kene panas.... arggghhh... plus sakit tekak...

*padan muka... sape suh minum air sejuk*

badan rasa penat... kene tido....

plz.... badan...

tlg kuat sket....

nak exam ni...

igt lecturer ckp....

dont answer something that will insult his intelligence.. hahaha...

lawak la lecturer ni....

jom positivekan diri....

hehe

suka

bila fikir2 balik...

kdg2...

ada perangai kita...

perbuatan kita...

yg kita tak sedar..

yg berubah... ketika kita bersama dgn org yg kita suka...

pelik kan?

kita tak perasan...

kita rasa mcm biasa...

tapi....

if ada org yg tgk kita...

mereka akan perasan...

ada sparkle in our eyes....

and muka happy je....

=)

haha... lawak je...

whatever....

kdg2....

bukan sbb kita suka sbb ada perasaan or anything....

cuma, for me....

tu sbb saya selesa...

i like to be with that person...

not that i like the person yg suka gile or anything...

but...

mereka ialah a good friend to be with...

and...

when our life ni kdg2 membosankan....

so, akan happy la bila berada dgn mereka...

faham?

=)

nice

suka lagu ni...

btw, i dah let go of the "cinta" la...

but... i like the song... =)