Ada benda yg saya tak mampu nak jelaskan.. But saya tak suka nak sakiti hati org terutamanya kawan sendiri.. If u really know me, u patut tau mcm saya respon bila saya sakiti org.. I will try my best utk explain dan utk betulkan salah tu.. So, do u really think saya nak suka2 sakiti kamu? Hmm.. Ada kalanya, kita mungkin tak bersua, tp, deep inside, friendship lasts forever.. I might not be there always.. And, apa kata tgk dulu kenapa sesuatu benda itu berlaku? Hmmm... Saya mintak maaf pada yg saya telah sakiti dan abaikan.. Bukan niat saya.. Like seriously, do u really think saya sengaja? Hmmm..
Kepala sgt sakit.. I need a break..
Saturday, December 24, 2011
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
saya boleh
tiba2, masalah dtg bertubi tanpa diduga... hmm... benarkah tanpa diduga? bukankah kita hidup ni kita kene selalu beringat? yes, one by one masalah yg dtg... i want to share but i just can't... kdg2, i will tell my friends tentang apa yg dlm fikiran... but, that is only one of the others... u get what i mean? apa yg benar2 dlm fikiran, keseluruhan yg berlaku, hanya saya sahaja yg tau...
kdg2, saya sedar.... maybe, ada yg silap dlm diri ini... sbb tu dpt masalah itu... and mungkin juga kerana Allah tahu yg saya mampu lakukannya... mungkin juga kerana ingin saya rasa betapa sakitnya terduduk...
saya ingin percaya yg saya boleh lalui semua ini.... ya.... saya boleh....
bila lelapkan mata, apa yg mampu saya buat ialah fikiran semua ini berulang kali....
ketenangan.... kemana hilangnya?
ya.... mmg dugaan ini dtg kerana saya semakin jauh dgn ketenangan... dugaan Allah agar saya sentiasa beringat utk sentiasa berusaha utk menjadi lebih baik...
kdg2, saya sedar.... maybe, ada yg silap dlm diri ini... sbb tu dpt masalah itu... and mungkin juga kerana Allah tahu yg saya mampu lakukannya... mungkin juga kerana ingin saya rasa betapa sakitnya terduduk...
saya ingin percaya yg saya boleh lalui semua ini.... ya.... saya boleh....
bila lelapkan mata, apa yg mampu saya buat ialah fikiran semua ini berulang kali....
ketenangan.... kemana hilangnya?
ya.... mmg dugaan ini dtg kerana saya semakin jauh dgn ketenangan... dugaan Allah agar saya sentiasa beringat utk sentiasa berusaha utk menjadi lebih baik...
Friday, December 16, 2011
senang ckp
bila semua org mula tak memahami kita.... kita yg perlu buat mereka faham.... and bila mereka tidak berminat utk faham, kita juga tak perlu terlalu terkesan dgn hal itu...
yg penting, diri sendiri jgn putus asa pada diri sendiri.. hmmm...
ada masanya, apa yg kita rancang takkan berjalan lancar.. takkan mengikut seperti yg kita rancang... yes, it will be hard... but, what to do... we have to accept it... the way we accept those happy moments... =)
i think, the more we questions tentang sesuatu, the more stress we will be and kita semakin sukar nak terima hakikat....
yes, i know, senang la nak ckp.. kita yg akan rasa....
and, have u ever face this... bila u fight for it gile2... then, bila u dah dpt, u wish u dont get it in the first place.. hmm... tu la contohnya apa yg kita nak bukanlah semestinya yg terbaik utk kita.. =)
yes, keyakinan diri itu penting... kita yakin yg kita mampu laluinya... but, percayalah.. hanya Allah benar2 tahu kemampuan kita.... mungkin apa yg kita mahukan itu bukanlah yg kita mampu tempuhi...
Thursday, December 15, 2011
dont let
cherish those simple yet sweet memories....
=)
dont let one bitter memory ruin the others...
cherish the person by giving all the love u can give....
if they really take the effort to rectify things, dont shut them off....
takde siapa tau..... mungkin, itu yg akan kuatkan hubungan itu?
for them
hari tu before my exam, i went out with my best girl friends... we spend almost one whole day together... the mission started on Friday directly after my class where i need to fetch one of my friend yg dtg all the way from Pahang... haaa... why? well... sbb kami nak berkumpul sbb one of our best friend is going to overseas for her studies... =)
Masa tu terasa sgt happy n excited.... dah lama kami tak berkumpul beramai2 mcm tu.... and yeah i miss all of them sooooo much!
kami spend most of our time together....
shaza, dia ialah kawan sebelah saya setiap sem.... sejak july 2006 hingga nov2010... lama kan? =) i really gonna miss her.....
all of them sgt bermakna buat saya....
i love all of you so much!
Masa dgn mereka terlalu berharga... kami dah lalui macam2... happy.. sedih... and yes, kami pernah je ada argument... but u know what... that's because we loves each other so much.... i really cherish each one of them and yes, i am who i am because of them.... we might not be together always... but, i have a lot of special moments with each of them.... shaza, we always bergossip dua org bila ada break masa blaja... we used to talk to the phone sekali ni lama gile... we even beli baju yg lebih kurang sama... from no car to a car... hehe...
dina, dia yg paling senyap n dia yg paling lembut antara kami... and, paling muda also... i treat her like my lil sister and i tend to buli her... but even dia yg paling muda, sometimes, she's the one yg melayan saya.... but, once dia sakit, i'm soooooo worry and i even dont mind utk duduk sebelah dia n tukar kain kat kepala dia setiap masa.... awww... i miss those moment....
ili, dia ni umpama ada connection with my mind as dia tau je apa yg saya nak katakan so end up bila nak kenakan dia, dia akan cepat kenekan saya balik.... she's my roommate masa last sem degree... i talked a lot with her sbb walaupun dia matang, dia akan melayan je perangai tak matang saya.... heeee..... she's the best! =)
hana, dia yg paling tenang sekali... sbb dia selalu blur.. hehe... suka kenekan dia sbb selalunya mesti berjaya.. hehe.... saya sgt suka buli dia.. eh wait... saya mmg suka membuli org ke? hehe....
no la... but sbb hana ili dina ialah my housemates... so, i loves to kacau them.... i will do a lot of things... seperti... i can even wait outside the room utk terkejutkan mereka.. or bila mereka pakai tudung i will purposely berdiri depan cermin... hahaha.... but i really care about them... kalau hari yg kelas petang, slalunya i'm the one yg bangun awal... so, since i'm the one yg ada kereta, i will go out and belikan sarapan utk each of them... hehe.. i know what they want...sangat rindukan saat tu sbb nanti bila mereka bangun, tiba2 dah ada sarapan... weeee..... =)
anis anis anis..... dia umpama seorang kakak, adik, and semua2... dia byk membantu saya... dulu masa saya takde lesen kereta, dia yg dgn sabarnya akan drive saya.. hehe... so now, saya akan membawa dia pula... weeee.... oh, u knowwww.... kami rapat sampaikan pernah satu hari, i was like so malas, so dia tlg potongkan kuku saya...... hehe... actually takde la malas mana but saje nak bermanja... weeee.... oh.... suka ckp dgn dia before tido...
aww... bila tulis ni, saya perasan i have a lot... like.. A LOT of memories with them yg tak mampu nak tulis semuanya... and, amazingly, i can remember each one really well....
they meant a lot to me... i love them... =) deep from my heart... take care syg semua...
=)
Masa tu terasa sgt happy n excited.... dah lama kami tak berkumpul beramai2 mcm tu.... and yeah i miss all of them sooooo much!
kami spend most of our time together....
shaza, dia ialah kawan sebelah saya setiap sem.... sejak july 2006 hingga nov2010... lama kan? =) i really gonna miss her.....
all of them sgt bermakna buat saya....
i love all of you so much!
ili. me. anis. shaza. dina
ili. me. dina
shaza.hana.ili
beautiful girls... =) love them so much!
yes, we gonna have another reunion once u r back syg.. =)
my first ever roommate!
Masa dgn mereka terlalu berharga... kami dah lalui macam2... happy.. sedih... and yes, kami pernah je ada argument... but u know what... that's because we loves each other so much.... i really cherish each one of them and yes, i am who i am because of them.... we might not be together always... but, i have a lot of special moments with each of them.... shaza, we always bergossip dua org bila ada break masa blaja... we used to talk to the phone sekali ni lama gile... we even beli baju yg lebih kurang sama... from no car to a car... hehe...
dina, dia yg paling senyap n dia yg paling lembut antara kami... and, paling muda also... i treat her like my lil sister and i tend to buli her... but even dia yg paling muda, sometimes, she's the one yg melayan saya.... but, once dia sakit, i'm soooooo worry and i even dont mind utk duduk sebelah dia n tukar kain kat kepala dia setiap masa.... awww... i miss those moment....
ili, dia ni umpama ada connection with my mind as dia tau je apa yg saya nak katakan so end up bila nak kenakan dia, dia akan cepat kenekan saya balik.... she's my roommate masa last sem degree... i talked a lot with her sbb walaupun dia matang, dia akan melayan je perangai tak matang saya.... heeee..... she's the best! =)
hana, dia yg paling tenang sekali... sbb dia selalu blur.. hehe... suka kenekan dia sbb selalunya mesti berjaya.. hehe.... saya sgt suka buli dia.. eh wait... saya mmg suka membuli org ke? hehe....
no la... but sbb hana ili dina ialah my housemates... so, i loves to kacau them.... i will do a lot of things... seperti... i can even wait outside the room utk terkejutkan mereka.. or bila mereka pakai tudung i will purposely berdiri depan cermin... hahaha.... but i really care about them... kalau hari yg kelas petang, slalunya i'm the one yg bangun awal... so, since i'm the one yg ada kereta, i will go out and belikan sarapan utk each of them... hehe.. i know what they want...sangat rindukan saat tu sbb nanti bila mereka bangun, tiba2 dah ada sarapan... weeee..... =)
anis anis anis..... dia umpama seorang kakak, adik, and semua2... dia byk membantu saya... dulu masa saya takde lesen kereta, dia yg dgn sabarnya akan drive saya.. hehe... so now, saya akan membawa dia pula... weeee.... oh, u knowwww.... kami rapat sampaikan pernah satu hari, i was like so malas, so dia tlg potongkan kuku saya...... hehe... actually takde la malas mana but saje nak bermanja... weeee.... oh.... suka ckp dgn dia before tido...
aww... bila tulis ni, saya perasan i have a lot... like.. A LOT of memories with them yg tak mampu nak tulis semuanya... and, amazingly, i can remember each one really well....
they meant a lot to me... i love them... =) deep from my heart... take care syg semua...
=)
random
Jujur pada diri walaupun ketika kamu tak ingin mengaku kebenaran...
Kebenaran itu mmg menyakitkan utk kita terima dan fahami..
Fahami diri walaupun kamu rasakan ianya terlalu sukar...
Sukar atau senang, kita harus bersyukur...
Bersyukur juga bermaksud menerimanya sepenuh hati..
Hati akan lebih kuat jika kamu percaya pada diri pada ketika mereka tidak....
Tidak, jangan mudah mengalah hanya kerana kamu diberikan cabaran...
Cabaran ialah rutin hidup,tiada siapa akan selamanya berada di atas dan selamanya berada di bawah.... Terima segalanya dgn hati yg terbuka....
Terbuka dlm menerima pendapat org lain akan buatkan kita menghargai setiap sesuatu...
Sesuatu yg terbuku dlm fikiran dan hati hanya diri kita dan Allah sahaja yg tahu...
=)
let's think
hmm... benda ni dah lama dlm simpanan tp tak publish... so here it goes.... =)
We always want to be like someone else.. And that someone want to be like us.. This is mainly because we tend to want something that we can see..
Whatever that someone owned, we can see it clearly.. So, yes, we want it..
But, we never take time to take a deep look at ourselves..
What do we have?
Well, for start.. look into the mirror.. Look at yourselves.. u yourself is good enough.. u don't have to be like her/him to look good.. :) now, look around u.. Start with your room maybe? Look at what u have.. Your surrounding.. Your family.. Your friends.. :)
u might lack in something, but, why must we be too perfect? Unique is good.. We don't have to be "prototype".. U know.. Prototype, when we set all the criteria we want and create the prototype that have all the criteria.. We don't have to be perfect..
Look at her, she's clumsy.. But can u see, she's unique.. :) that clumsiness kinda cute.. :)
now, look inside your soul.. Your inner part.. U are strong like that "someone" u want to be.. :) eh wait, u might even stronger than them.. :) we might not be strong in every aspect of life.. But, there r times we r stronger than other people..
Ok, now, why should we keep on comparing ourselves with the others? Why? Who said that those "someone" life is the way to live our life? Haih.. Why oh why we must keep on comparing? Why don't we just live our life as it is?
something good for them is not necessarily good for us as well and vice versa... =)
Well,that's the question for me and you to ponder on.. :) till I see u again in the next entry.. :)
We always want to be like someone else.. And that someone want to be like us.. This is mainly because we tend to want something that we can see..
Whatever that someone owned, we can see it clearly.. So, yes, we want it..
But, we never take time to take a deep look at ourselves..
What do we have?
Well, for start.. look into the mirror.. Look at yourselves.. u yourself is good enough.. u don't have to be like her/him to look good.. :) now, look around u.. Start with your room maybe? Look at what u have.. Your surrounding.. Your family.. Your friends.. :)
u might lack in something, but, why must we be too perfect? Unique is good.. We don't have to be "prototype".. U know.. Prototype, when we set all the criteria we want and create the prototype that have all the criteria.. We don't have to be perfect..
Look at her, she's clumsy.. But can u see, she's unique.. :) that clumsiness kinda cute.. :)
now, look inside your soul.. Your inner part.. U are strong like that "someone" u want to be.. :) eh wait, u might even stronger than them.. :) we might not be strong in every aspect of life.. But, there r times we r stronger than other people..
Ok, now, why should we keep on comparing ourselves with the others? Why? Who said that those "someone" life is the way to live our life? Haih.. Why oh why we must keep on comparing? Why don't we just live our life as it is?
something good for them is not necessarily good for us as well and vice versa... =)
Well,that's the question for me and you to ponder on.. :) till I see u again in the next entry.. :)
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
positive
wah... dah lama rasanya tak menulis.... why? been busy preparing for my exam... and how its over for now... =)
been writing a lot but save kat ipod je n tak publish.... setiap kali down, i will write...setiap kali happy akan tulis... =)
but, i wont publish it now since itu dah lepas... hee....
ada org rindu entry from me tak? weeee... harap2 ada... hehe... but if takde pun takpe sbb i just write utk diri sendiri... =)
exam kali ni mengajar saya mcm2.... ok, before ni masa diploma n degree, ada la kesukaran ketika belajar... but i can still be okay sbb ada ramai kawan2.... but now, its a professional paper and i do it by myself.... yeah, so the tense was there when i go to class alone and come back at night... the feeling of loneliness when lecturer bg break 5 minit but i dont have anyone to talk to.... the feeling of loneliness bila ada soalan tp taktau nak tanya kawan mana... hmmm... yes, it was tough for me.... i miss my friends badly..... like serious... my studymates... but, all i can do was to just pretend like everything is okay.. and hey... guess what, it does really seems to be okay... dah lama2 akan terbiasa n dah tak kisah..... and after that, Allah SWT mmg sygkan saya... i got a friend in my finance class.... dia mcm seorang kakak yg always ask me whether i'm ok... she's even called me right after exam to know whether i'm alright... and bila lepas habis exam another paper, dia msg n tanya juga... =) Alhamdulillah... bila rasa sunyi dulu, i found a friend.... alhamdulillah....
hmm... ckp pasal exam... one of the paper that i took, i just know i wont make it this sem and gonna repeat it.. i'm so down and i told my brother n mother about it.... now i'm ok... yes, in term of studies, its been awhile that i really feel the disappointment... and now... i will face it... i will face it... when we r falling hard to the ground, we must always prepare to bounce back... =)
so, benda dah berlalu akan teruskan berlalu.... now lets talk about those happy things...
oh.... my best friend is going to UK soon! gonna miss her badly.... =( i wish all the very best to her.... last time kitorang berkumpul ramai2, that was really a sweet memory that i wont forget.... forever... hope to spend time mcm tu again.... =)
oh, i have a lot to do... like a lot...and i have a lot of friends that i need to meet... semua kene tunda since i'm busy with my exam last time... heeee.... now, i dont remember the last time i just spend my day read a good book... heeee..... i'm so thankful to Allah for this.... =) yes, we need to work hard, and this is my rest time.... =)
ops, i need to go out now, gonna write more soon...
=)
i'm in a positive mood...
been writing a lot but save kat ipod je n tak publish.... setiap kali down, i will write...setiap kali happy akan tulis... =)
but, i wont publish it now since itu dah lepas... hee....
ada org rindu entry from me tak? weeee... harap2 ada... hehe... but if takde pun takpe sbb i just write utk diri sendiri... =)
exam kali ni mengajar saya mcm2.... ok, before ni masa diploma n degree, ada la kesukaran ketika belajar... but i can still be okay sbb ada ramai kawan2.... but now, its a professional paper and i do it by myself.... yeah, so the tense was there when i go to class alone and come back at night... the feeling of loneliness when lecturer bg break 5 minit but i dont have anyone to talk to.... the feeling of loneliness bila ada soalan tp taktau nak tanya kawan mana... hmmm... yes, it was tough for me.... i miss my friends badly..... like serious... my studymates... but, all i can do was to just pretend like everything is okay.. and hey... guess what, it does really seems to be okay... dah lama2 akan terbiasa n dah tak kisah..... and after that, Allah SWT mmg sygkan saya... i got a friend in my finance class.... dia mcm seorang kakak yg always ask me whether i'm ok... she's even called me right after exam to know whether i'm alright... and bila lepas habis exam another paper, dia msg n tanya juga... =) Alhamdulillah... bila rasa sunyi dulu, i found a friend.... alhamdulillah....
hmm... ckp pasal exam... one of the paper that i took, i just know i wont make it this sem and gonna repeat it.. i'm so down and i told my brother n mother about it.... now i'm ok... yes, in term of studies, its been awhile that i really feel the disappointment... and now... i will face it... i will face it... when we r falling hard to the ground, we must always prepare to bounce back... =)
so, benda dah berlalu akan teruskan berlalu.... now lets talk about those happy things...
oh.... my best friend is going to UK soon! gonna miss her badly.... =( i wish all the very best to her.... last time kitorang berkumpul ramai2, that was really a sweet memory that i wont forget.... forever... hope to spend time mcm tu again.... =)
oh, i have a lot to do... like a lot...and i have a lot of friends that i need to meet... semua kene tunda since i'm busy with my exam last time... heeee.... now, i dont remember the last time i just spend my day read a good book... heeee..... i'm so thankful to Allah for this.... =) yes, we need to work hard, and this is my rest time.... =)
ops, i need to go out now, gonna write more soon...
=)
i'm in a positive mood...
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