...

ok.. saya tak sesabar mana...
kdg2 saya akan hilang sabar...
maybe sbb saya penat...
saya penat melayan karenah org...
huhu...

saya penat bila org tak hargai saya..
saya penat bila org tak layan saya...
saya penat...
saya penat bila saya je yg berusaha...
but, saya sedar tu kawan2 saya..
so yeah.. takpelah... =)

work?

what does working life actually mean to me?

ok.. let me put it this way...
there r time where i'm looking foward for my work.. full of passion.. energy and etc..
but, there r time i feel that i'm tired.. not because of work, but the people...

but hey... its normal right?
i cant be positive all the time.. i have my own down time...
as in.. the time i have to give some space to my feelings..

working life is really an eye-opening journey..
now, i can see and understand more about the "real facts" of the life...
now i know, there r really a lot of attitude out there..
sometimes, we r the one to adapt into the environment.. because, hey, that is the way it is... takkan we expect the environment adapt with us.. duuuhhhh... hahaha...

but yes, in a way, i like to work.. why? because i can learn a lot of thing.. like A LOT... *ignore the facts that i had to talk to those hard-to-deal-with-client... hahaha... *
i like that facts that i can learn a lot... and hye.. there's a lot more to learn.. but i guess, i need to finish up my studies dulu la kan... so that i can really work and learn.. after all, i'm only an intern now... =)

have u ever felt like no one understand u?
like u want to scream and let everyone understand?

yeah yeah.. i know.. me too...

but then, what to do?

btw, i learnt that...
i dont need a lot of friends... i only need a very understanding one..
the one that will listen... as in.. really listen...

P.S: i dont like shopping anymore. i only looking foward for a talk with my friends... for me, that is more meaningful rather than spend the money.. only me get the benefits.. (oh, and the shop as well)..
So yeah, i like to spend time with my friends by sharing stories with them...

A good talk with a good friends with a good food is enough for me.. Alhamdulillah.. =)

weee... welcome!

sorry sbb dah lama buat blog ni as private.. now, its public again.. =)

to u..

bukan tak percaya.. tapi, tak berapa caya...

saya tak percaya secara keseluruhan...
tapi ada yg saya percaya...
maybe sbb saya terlalu sibuk fikirkan org yg tak fikirkan saya...
hinggakan saya terlupa nak fikir org yg fikir saya ni...
but to u.. yes, u...
saya percaya kamu... end of story...
jgn nak harap saya ckp benda ni..
sbb saya takkan ulang...(kalau nak ulang, baca entry ni)
sbb saya nye hati makin keras..
malas nak ckp.. kang sedih n emo...
=)

ajar kita...

praktikal...
why to write?

put it this way...
pengalaman yg sgt mengajar...
ajar kita yg hidup ni tak semudah yg disangka...
ajar yg kita perlu berdikari...
ajar yg bukan semua benda itu mudah...

ajar cara kita berhubung dgn semua org...
ajar kita berckp dgn org...
ajar kita yg bukan semua org akan layan kita seelok cara kita layan mereka..

ajar yg betapa hidup ni kdg2 penuh dgn kepuraan...
ajar yg bukan semua org akan sukakan kita...
ajar yg kdg kala,org lain tak suka dgn kejayaan kita...
ajar yg kegagalan kita lg org suka...

ajar yg kdg kala,kita ni kene fikir sendiri apa yg patut dilakukan..
ajar yg kdg kala,walau tak suka.. kene buat juga...

ajar kita on time,tapi org lain suka2 lambat...
ajar kita utk senyum walaupun hati rasa nak nangis...
ajar kita utk tahan,walaupun rasa nak marah...

ajar benda yg takda dlm buku teks...
ajar yg kdg kala,membaca dan mempraktikkan ialah dua benda berbeza...

malah...
ajar kita utk jadi lebih matang...
ajar kita agar kita tidak mudah putus asa...
ajar kita menjadi manusia yg lebih baik(insyaAllah)..
ajar kita yg hari jumaat itu sgt best sbb esoknya cuti...
ajar kita jgn amik mudah sesuatu perkara...

mcm2 lg yg kita belajar.. kan? but,nanti la sambung... =)

arrgghhh

ok.. satu masalah...
aku tak faham...
samada aku salah,atau aku betul?
samada aku marah,atau aku kecewa?
samada aku geram,atau aku sedih?

put it this way..
aku dlm situasi dimana aku rasa geram..
tapi,sebenarnya aku sedih...

aku dlm situasi dimana aku rasa aku tak kisah..
tapi.. sebenarnya aku kisah...

aku dlm situasi dimana aku rasa aku bengang..
tapi sebenarnya aku terasa...

but then.. bila aku fikir2 balik..
aku mmg complicated..

skang aku rasa serabut... hmm... tak suka...
serabut is not good at all...

so.. kamu.. tlg pergi jauh2..
jgn muncul depan aku lg..
so that aku akan hidup dgn lebih tenang...

just go...
aku tak mahu lihat kau lg..

sekian.. terima kasih...

sorry

due to some reasons.. blog aku tersadai agak lama... weee...
now.. aku invite org2 yg aku mahu..
dah tak bebas mcm dulu utk org singgah... maaf yer.. =)
but,jgn risau.. ada entry yg aku akan letak kat notes kat fb.. tapi aku publish kat org yg aku mahu je..

kenapa aku buat mcm tu?
ada sbbnya...
ada org tau... keep it as secret k... =)

btw.. my life? tak sebagus mana akhir2 ni..
tapi... sejak bila hidup ni bagus memanjang.. right?

=)

pergi!

Mahu ku jerit padanya...
Jerit semua rahsia hati aku...
Sbb terlalu pedih aku simpannya!

Aku tak mahukan kau lg..
Tlg pergi!!
Bukan aku lupa diri...
Tapi... Kerana aku sedar diri la..
Aku mahukan kau pergi!!

Aku tak boleh simpan kau dlm hati aku...
Ruang itu aku perlu kosongkan...
Bukan utk org baru..
cuma.. Tempat kau bukan di sini...

buktinya?
Ketika aku yakin aku dah lupakan kau..
Hidup aku lebih teratur..
jiwa aku juga mula kurang berkata2..
irama hati lebih tenang dan riang..

Kau tau apa yg aku mahu lakukan?
Aku rasa seperti mahu lari dari sini..

Pergi jauh dari kau...
Ke tempat kau takkan jumpa aku...
kau mungkin salah satu kekuatan aku..
Tapi.. Kau juga salah satu yg meleburkan semangat aku...

Maaf... Aku kene kuat.. Cukup setakat ni...
Hari yg kita jumpa itu..
bakal menjadi titik tolak...
Aku takkan jumpa dgn kau lg...
Sehingga hati aku bersedia...
kali ini.. hinga aku…
Benar2 bersedia...

please stay with me..

i wanted to talk.. that's all...

i'm trying to ignore the thing that messing with my soul.. messing with my heart..

But,every little conversation with my friends,really helped me..i wont talk about the thing that bother me.. but,i will talk about those little and insignificant things.. so,please stay with me...

but hey.. please stay with me.. i'm happy coz i wanted to believe i am.. so.. to those that i had took your time and talk about those insignificant thing,i'm sorry.. and thank you.. maybe u guys dont realize.. but that actually helped me a lot... really!

Someone told me,i'm just a denial person.. as in.. i'm trying to ignore the fact.. but hey.. that's not the way it works.. but,yeah.. i wont talk to u guys about it.. but i'm aware of every single thing in my life.. it just that i dont feel like sharing 100% with anyone.. that's all..

I can say that i'm actually a person that think a lot.. as in A LOT... so.. yeah.. sometimes i can be anxious about a very simple thing.. sometimes i worry too much.. but,that's me.. just stay with me.. just a little bit longer..

I know that sometimes,i wanted to give up.. but hey,plz dont look down at me.. that's me.. i feels like giving up,but i will try my best to stay on track.. i might says that i'm gonna give up.. but,i never will.. so please,stay with me...

i also realized that sometimes,i'm a very reserve person.. i wont share everything in my mind,but hey.. please stay with me.. not that i dont trust u.. but,this is me.. sometimes,there are things that i prefer it to be unspoken.. so,please stay with me..

And yes,when i had make up my mind,i'm sorry... i can be a very firm person.. but please.. stay with me...

Sometimes,i can also be very very very SENSITIVE.. but,hey.. please stay with me.. sometimes,when i feel that u guys understand me,i will start to hope that u guys wont say certain things... but,after a while.. i will be ok... me myself will feel bad by my own because of my sensitiveness,so,i will be okay later.. so.. please.. stay with me...

sorry because typing this note.. maybe this is not important for u guys... but please.. stay with me..

Lastly, thank you each and everyone of you.. u know who u r.. =)