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Hidup kita tak sempurna.. Tp, kita cuba utk hargai segalanya utk hidup lebih bahagia.. :) kdg2 hidup kita sgt menyakitkan, tp, kita cuba utk kekalkan yg manis utk kita lebih bersyukur.. Tp, ada kalanya, beban tu sgt berat.. Dan kita tak mampu nak pikulnya.. Tp, yg penting, kita nak cuba juga.. :) i want to be able to wake up 10 yrs later and says how stupid i am to do it rather than how scared i am of not even trying..

Life is too short to keep on whining.. :)

Kenapa?

Kdg2, bila kita dah buat salah sekali, ada org takkan mampu maafkan kita dan sentiasa akan igt hal tu and even bila kita dah try our best to be a better person, apa saje yg kita buat hanya akan annoy org tu.. Walaupun kita bg perhatian pada dia more than kita layan org lain, walaupun kita bersabar dgn dia more than org lain, but disbbkan silap yg lalu, nothing is good enough and kehadiran kita tak dialukan sgt.. Even if dia terima, hanya secara luaran.. This is exactly what my friend told me.. Susah nak berbaik semula bila org tu dah bencikam kita.. Cuma, hal ni buat saya berfikir..

Kenapa perlu org itu berusaha amik hati org yg bencikan dia? Oh, katanya kerana itu lah kawan baiknya yg dia syg.. Tp, persoalannya, berbaloikah dia dilayan mcm tu? Dia dah berusaha amik hati, tp, org yg taknak maafkan dia tu hukum dia terlalu berat.. Dia abaikan perasaan org tu dan biarkan saje org yg terus terusan amik hati dia.. Bila dia malas nak layan, kata2 dia sgt sinis.. Haih... Bila fikir balik, saya rasa tak berbaloi utk org tu bersabar lg.. Saya faham dia sygkan persahabatan tu, tp, apa gunanya bila usaha dia dilihat sebagai merimaskan dan apa saje yg dia lakukan dilihat sebagai annoying? Apa guna dia amik hati bila org tu dgn terang terang katakan yg dia takde kawan baik dan takde kawan yg dia percayai? Apa guna?

But yeah, tu pendapat saya.. Kawan saya tentu lebih tau.. :)

my current fav - 1st

OMG, suka sgt lagu ni... bley dgr one whole nite n cry...



Christine Perri The lonely

my current fav - 2nd

• sara bareilles breathe again

look back

dlm hidup ni... kita kene sentiasa pandang positive...

kalau susah mcm mana pun, look back... dulu kita kuat kan? insyaAllah kita akan jadi lagi kuat...

kalau kita gagal, look back... kejayaan lama pun bukan senang utk dicapai,kan? ada byk halangan juga kan... insyaAllah, kita boleh...

kalau kita hilang semangat... look back.... ada sesuatu yg tersirat dan berharga yg keep us running... insyaAllah....

yg penting, bila kita rasa keseorangan... look back.... ada family dan kawan2 yg menyokong.... pandang la itu.. itu lebih berharga drpd org2 yg ingin menarik kita jatuh... =) and again, Allah sentiasa dgn kita...

=)

tenang

ok, pengakuan jujur....
sebenarnya sejak mula kelas hari tu masa july, i'm not happy.... partly sbb ada paper yg kene amik sorang2.... mmg hati tak happy.. takde semangat... haih....

but, now, rasa ni... Alhamdulillah... hati dan fikiran ni mula bertenang... harap2 lepas ni bila mula kelas, dpt la semangat tu kembali...

Pray for me ya?

=)

thanks....

wont hurt to change

i know the person yg saya paling selalu ckp ialah diri sendiri....
like seriously la kan...

haih.. ada masanya... i was just way too rude.... or mudah sgt marah.... masa tu la diri akan mula berkata2 dlm hati....

"nape kau ckp mcm tu nur? i know kau takley bunyi bising while tgk berita, but, people is talking with u... how could u..."
"hmm.. tu la... nur tak patut tetiba masamkan muka or perli mcm tu... oh.... ;( "

so, i will quickly justify it... and mintak maaf if tu buatkan org terasa...

yes... saya mengaku saya ada masanya cepat melenting lg2 sesuatu yg melibatkan bunyi bising... but, i will always try to change that...

it wont hurt to change to be a better person... kan? =)

session

saya nak jadi positive setiap hari....
how?
bila rasa mcm nak down, i will tell myself benda2 utk bangkitkan semula semangat...
bila rasa ada yg tak kene, i will try to remember the happy things....
things like that....

but, yes... ada hari2 yg i just can't...
hmmm....
i will break down and just let everything to take over me...
i will be sad for the whole night...
i will stress out thinking about this and that....

BUT...

that's all...
after a session of that...
the next morning, i will wake up with a new happy mood...
=)

the things is, sometimes, i'm too hard on myself.... i want everything to be perfect... what is perfect? maybe the standard is way too high for me to reach.... but when it come to some one else, i always motivate them to go easy with theirself... haih.. tu la... easy say than done... heee....

ok.. but, that's it... today my happy mood day... everything insyaAllah will be ok...

=)

care about u

haha... nasihat org.. jgn buat org, nanti akan kene batang hidung sendiri... =)

org suka kat kita, kita tolak....

nanti bila kita suka kat org, kita la plak kene tolak....

faham?

=)

actually this post patutnya nak jadi emo semacam...
but while trying to write it, my cat is looking at me and just refuse to sleep... auwww... so sweet of her...

so ya... i can see that no use for me to be sad over a small matter... i still have a lot other happy things to think of... so, why must i over focus on that one? am i right?

=)

when u r sad, look around... someone out there care about u...

=)

not the same

bila kali terakhir saya rasa ok? ouh... hari tu... heee...

i know i will be ok...

cuma nanti mula la kan rasa mcm teringat2 hal lalu...

heee....

my life is much easier when u r only my friend... 

and yes, i will choose for that to be the same....

sbb back then, i can just talk to u without thinking too much...

haih... now?

everything is not the same anymore...

hmmm...