for them

hari tu before my exam, i went out with my best girl friends... we spend almost one whole day together... the mission started on Friday directly after my class where i need to fetch one of my friend yg dtg all the way from Pahang... haaa... why? well... sbb kami nak berkumpul sbb one of our best friend is going to overseas for her studies... =)

Masa tu terasa sgt happy n excited.... dah lama kami tak berkumpul beramai2 mcm tu.... and yeah i miss all of them sooooo much!

kami spend most of our time together....

shaza, dia ialah kawan sebelah saya setiap sem.... sejak july 2006 hingga nov2010... lama kan? =) i really gonna miss her.....

all of them sgt bermakna buat saya....

i love all of you so much!

               

ili. me. anis. shaza. dina

ili. me. dina 

shaza.hana.ili

beautiful girls... =) love them so much!

yes, we gonna have another reunion once u r back syg.. =)

my first ever roommate!

Masa dgn mereka terlalu berharga... kami dah lalui macam2... happy.. sedih... and yes, kami pernah je ada argument... but u know what... that's because we loves each other so much.... i really cherish each one of them and yes, i am who i am because of them.... we might not be together always... but, i have a lot of special moments with each of them.... shaza, we always bergossip dua org bila ada break masa blaja... we used to talk to the phone sekali ni lama gile... we even beli baju yg lebih kurang sama... from no car to a car... hehe...

dina, dia yg paling senyap n dia yg paling lembut antara kami... and, paling muda also... i treat her like my lil sister and i tend to buli her... but even dia yg paling muda, sometimes, she's the one yg melayan saya.... but, once dia sakit, i'm soooooo worry and i even dont mind utk duduk sebelah dia n tukar kain kat kepala dia setiap masa.... awww... i miss those moment....

ili, dia ni umpama ada connection with my mind as dia tau je apa yg saya nak katakan so end up bila nak kenakan dia, dia akan cepat kenekan saya balik.... she's my roommate masa last sem degree... i talked a lot with her sbb walaupun dia matang, dia akan melayan je perangai tak matang saya.... heeee..... she's the best! =)

hana, dia yg paling tenang sekali... sbb dia selalu blur.. hehe... suka kenekan dia sbb selalunya mesti berjaya.. hehe.... saya sgt suka buli dia.. eh wait... saya mmg suka membuli org ke? hehe....

no la... but sbb hana ili dina ialah my housemates... so, i loves to kacau them.... i will do a lot of things... seperti... i can even wait outside the room utk terkejutkan mereka.. or bila mereka pakai tudung i will purposely berdiri depan cermin... hahaha.... but i really care about them... kalau hari yg kelas petang, slalunya i'm the one yg bangun awal... so, since i'm the one yg ada kereta, i will go out and belikan sarapan utk each of them... hehe.. i know what they want...sangat rindukan saat tu sbb nanti bila mereka bangun, tiba2 dah ada sarapan... weeee..... =)

anis anis anis..... dia umpama seorang kakak, adik, and semua2... dia byk membantu saya... dulu masa saya takde lesen kereta, dia yg dgn sabarnya akan drive saya.. hehe... so now, saya akan membawa dia pula... weeee.... oh, u knowwww.... kami rapat sampaikan pernah satu hari, i was like so malas, so dia tlg potongkan kuku saya...... hehe... actually takde la malas mana but saje nak bermanja... weeee.... oh.... suka ckp dgn dia before tido...

aww... bila tulis ni, saya perasan i have a lot... like.. A LOT of memories with them yg tak mampu nak tulis semuanya... and, amazingly, i can remember each one really well....

they meant a lot to me... i love them... =) deep from my heart... take care syg semua...

=)

random

Jujur pada diri walaupun ketika kamu tak ingin mengaku kebenaran... 

Kebenaran itu mmg menyakitkan utk kita terima dan fahami..

Fahami diri walaupun kamu rasakan ianya terlalu sukar...

Sukar atau senang, kita harus bersyukur...

Bersyukur juga bermaksud menerimanya sepenuh hati.. 

Hati akan lebih kuat jika kamu percaya pada diri pada ketika mereka tidak....

Tidak, jangan mudah mengalah hanya kerana kamu diberikan cabaran...

Cabaran ialah rutin hidup,tiada siapa akan selamanya berada di atas dan selamanya berada di bawah.... Terima segalanya dgn hati yg terbuka....

Terbuka dlm menerima pendapat org lain akan buatkan kita menghargai setiap sesuatu... 

Sesuatu yg terbuku dlm fikiran dan hati hanya diri kita dan Allah sahaja yg tahu... 

=)

let's think

hmm... benda ni dah lama dlm simpanan tp tak publish... so here it goes.... =)

We always want to be like someone else.. And that someone want to be like us.. This is mainly because we tend to want something that we can see.. 


Whatever that someone owned, we can see it clearly.. So, yes, we want it.. 


But, we never take time to take a deep look at ourselves.. 


What do we have? 


Well, for start.. look into the mirror.. Look at yourselves.. u yourself is good enough.. u don't have to be like her/him to look good.. :) now, look around u.. Start with your room maybe? Look at what u have.. Your surrounding.. Your family.. Your friends.. :) 


u might lack in something, but, why must we be too perfect? Unique is good.. We don't have to be "prototype".. U know.. Prototype, when we set all the criteria we want and create the prototype that have all the criteria.. We don't have to be perfect.. 


Look at her, she's clumsy.. But can u see, she's unique.. :) that clumsiness kinda cute.. :) 


now, look inside your soul.. Your inner part.. U are strong like that "someone" u want to be.. :) eh wait, u might even stronger than them.. :) we might not be strong in every aspect of life.. But, there r times we r stronger than other people..

Ok, now, why should we keep on comparing ourselves with the others? Why? Who said that those "someone" life is the way to live our life? Haih.. Why oh why we must keep on comparing? Why don't we just live our life as it is?

something good for them is not necessarily good for us as well and vice versa...  =)


Well,that's the question for me and you to ponder on.. :) till I see u again in the next entry.. :)

positive

wah... dah lama rasanya tak menulis.... why? been busy preparing for my exam... and how its over for now... =)

been writing a lot but save kat ipod je n tak publish.... setiap kali down, i will write...setiap kali happy akan tulis... =)

but, i wont publish it now since itu dah lepas... hee....

ada org rindu entry from me tak? weeee... harap2 ada... hehe... but if takde pun takpe sbb i just write utk diri sendiri... =)

exam kali ni mengajar saya mcm2.... ok, before ni masa diploma n degree, ada la kesukaran ketika belajar... but i can still be okay sbb ada ramai kawan2.... but now, its a professional paper and i do it by myself.... yeah, so the tense was there when i go to class alone and come back at night... the feeling of loneliness when lecturer bg break 5 minit but i dont have anyone to talk to.... the feeling of loneliness bila ada soalan tp taktau nak tanya kawan mana... hmmm... yes, it was tough for me.... i miss my friends badly..... like serious... my studymates... but, all i can do was to just pretend like everything is okay.. and hey... guess what, it does really seems to be okay... dah lama2 akan terbiasa n dah tak kisah..... and after that, Allah SWT mmg sygkan saya... i got a friend in my finance class.... dia mcm seorang kakak yg always ask me whether i'm ok... she's even called me right after exam to know whether i'm alright... and bila lepas habis exam another paper, dia msg n tanya juga... =) Alhamdulillah... bila rasa sunyi dulu, i found a friend.... alhamdulillah....

hmm... ckp pasal exam... one of the paper that i took, i just know i wont make it this sem and gonna repeat it.. i'm so down and i told my brother n mother about it.... now i'm ok... yes, in term of studies, its been awhile that i really feel the disappointment... and now... i will face it... i will face it... when we r falling hard to the ground, we must always prepare to bounce back... =)

so, benda dah berlalu akan teruskan berlalu.... now lets talk about those happy things...

oh.... my best friend is going to UK soon! gonna miss her badly.... =( i wish all the very best to her.... last time kitorang berkumpul ramai2, that was really a sweet memory that i wont forget.... forever... hope to spend time mcm tu again.... =)

oh, i have a lot to do... like a lot...and i have a lot of friends that i need to meet... semua kene tunda since i'm busy with my exam last time... heeee.... now, i dont remember the last time i just spend my day read a good book... heeee..... i'm so thankful to Allah for this.... =) yes, we need to work hard, and this is my rest time.... =)

ops, i need to go out now, gonna write more soon...

=)

i'm in a positive mood...

malas

kdg2, rasa berat kat hati ni.... bila menyedari diri kita tak diperlukan seperti mana org lain.... bila kita sedar we r not fun as others.... bila kita sedar hidup kita membosankan dan tidak berjaya utk memberi impak pada org lain....

hmmm... kita happy bersama org itu... but, org tu sebenarnya bosan dgn kita... kemudian ada org yg happy bersama dgn kita.. but kita pula larikan diri... haihhh..... putaran....

malas nak fikir2 lg... penat!

been busy

been busy for the past few weeks... hehe... *aik, fulltime student pun busy ke?*

haha... yes i am... been busy running around here and there to settle up things for my family... helping my mom to buy the groceries... take her out for shopping... helping my brother to take things from here to there.... follow him for business trip *but i more like enjoying it as holiday*.... go to class.... try to meet up with friends... kemas rumah... kemas ini.. kemas itu.... driving here n there.... etc etc.... so, siapa kata student tak busy? haha....

i even belum ada masa utk betul2 duduk mengadap buku n understand apa yg sedang dipelajari sem ini.. haih.... but that is totally my fault... sbb bila habis kelas, sampai rumah terus tgk cerita korea n then terus tido... but i just can't help it sbb best la citer tu.... hee...

ok, now i'm talking nonsense... heee....

actually this post supposedly is created to remind myself that i need to prioritize things... since my trial exam is just around the corner, i need to put my studies above all.... the thing is, when am i going to start studying? haaa... that's the problem.... well.... this is not an easy paper and this is really freaking me out.... i never been so lost like this.. but hey, what's the point of freaking out? i just need to calm down n start working on it.. right?

great, when the positiveness is there, i can keep it moving.. so... if u have any negative aura, dont come near me... haha... kidding! come come, i will give u some of the positiveness... hehe...

btw, i know, since i'm soooo freaking busy for the past few weeks, i didn't contact most of my friends... here, i want to truly apologies for it.... =) i'm busy, everyone of us will come across a point where we r so busy that we cant even reply any msg.. right? 

till then, may Allah give us strength to live the life... Amin... =)

Byk

Bila ada terlalu byk difikiran, i jadi more and more grumpy.. Ada je yg tak kene akan saya tinggikan suara.. And selepas tinggikan suara, i will always realized how bad it is and try to makes things right.. Hmm.. But kdg2, bila fikirkan balik, siapa suruh tangguhkan kerja, sbb tu la otak semak dgn benda2 tu.. If saya teruskan buat sesuatu n siapkan, i wont be too stress like now.. Haih!

After i think about the question i asked on the previous entry, i dont think i need an answer.. People changed is a normal thing.. Its like i want to ask why cat loves fish or why the moon is round.. U get what i mean? Hee.. We dont have to understand everything.. :)

Why

So hard when i try to decide on something small, i make a big deal of it.. Heee.. Ok, put it this way, i'm just someone who loves to plan what i should be doing in advance.. Even if i'm out, usually i will plan my road n destination.. But this is partly because i'm sucks in remembering roads and i will end up to somewhere else.. Huhu.. I can even lost if i use GPS.. Haih, it think it is due to because i get annoyed easily by the voice that keep on recalculating the route and ask me to turn right or left.. And because i dont trust the device as it keep on giving me the route that are far than it should be.. Hmmm..

Eh, my point is, i always plan in advance what i should do.. I dont want to miss ou any important factors.. And yes, that is actually not a pleasant act.. Lol.. Can u imagine how stress i am when everything i planned for is not on track? Heee.. So yeah, i try to be more spontaneous and it actually work except of the part im still always lost while driving.. Hee.. And guess what, i actually enjoy organizing my schedule.. I feels more alive when i have a schedule to follow.. Now that i think about it, i think i'm such a boring person.. Lol! Heee...

Btw, why is it when we grow older, we change? I dont like to do the things i used to love and i enjoy do something i used to hate.. Haih.. Trying to understand every single thing is hard..

Bagus?

Been trying so hard so that she accept me as i am.. But i guess that is just too much to ask from her.. So, here i am.. I give up.. I dah cuba sebaik mungkin, but im not good enough.. And i dont want this to drag me down or buat saya sedih.. Cukuplah.. She herself is not so much a good person.. Plus, apa yg dia igtkan dia tu bagus sgt? Huh!