Monday, June 27, 2011

what should i do?

pada saat saya menarik nafas lega sbb igtkan semuanya dah berlancar, that is when i'm wrong.... saya benar2 percaya apa yg saya buat tu dah cukup utk pastikan semuanya berjalan lancar... saya dah dptkan confirmation.... but then again, we can't really confirm everything huh? so here i am... saya tak suka perasaan ni... rasa sgt sgt terganggu... i dont like it and will never will get used to it...

mcm mana nak settle... mcm mana nak stop jadi beban? mcm mana????

everytime.... everytime i think i want to make things better, di situ la saya salah...

bila saya nak cuba utk tidak give up and up for the challenge, that is when saya rasa nak jatuh...

saya tak sekuat mana... but i always pretended i am...

beban... saya taknak jadi beban siapa2...

takkan jadi beban...

=(

what should i do?

what is my ultimate decision?

Allah, plz give me petunjuk... i dont know what to do.. and only to You that i can turn to... Amin..

=(

4 comments:

Aiman Ariffin said...

Nur,

Sometimes in life you are just not ready to not be a burden yet nur. We need to keep on growing until one day you know you can stand by ur own.

Dont be too hard on urself nur. Dont be. The people close to you know that you are trying ur best and we know that you are not the type of person who likes to trouble ppl for no reason.

hikayat aku dan mereka said...

aiman... yup, i dont want to burden anyone... but entahlah... i just can't stop thinking about it... =(

i want to stand by my own.. but, i just can't do it now...

=(

Aiman Ariffin said...

dont be too hard on urself nur pls.

somethings are meant to be helped. One day when you are ready. u can do it by urself. dont be too hard on urself pls. dont feel that ure useless or anything like that.

hikayat aku dan mereka said...

ok... i'm trying...

i cuba utk tak salahkan diri sendiri...

u're right... i was too hard on myself... i always will put the blame on me even if that's not mine... maybe i should stop doing it.. =(

thanks aiman...